well, first just wanted to say we got first at nationals!!! =]

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so there are a few things that have been on my mind lately...

drama is dumb. and i pretty much hate my life now that i just lost my two best friends and now pretty much feel like i have nothing.

But what ever happened to the days where people just knew to do the right thing. the days where no one would ever even dream of dissobeying their mother and father. when kids always went to sunday school and you were considered common and unworthy if you didnt. the time when people were raised to respect eachother and fear God. where devotions and prayers were just a part of life.

now there's all this controversy and we're not even hardly allowed to talk about religion in schools. and girls are having sex and getting pregnant in middle school already. guys treat girls like crap and no one is respectful.

i wish i wouldve lived about 50 years ago. because that is the kindof life i want. i despise how the world acts now days with all the immodesty and it is just not cool for a girl to be well mannered and reserved.

i look at how my life is going right now and i have decided that this is how i want to start living. because i dont care what people think of me. and the only people who wouldnt like it or think it weird would be the ones that dont really matter. i dont want to date guys who just want to be around me because they think im pretty or want to get something from me. i think i deserve a little better than that. and i am above all the slutty dressing just to fit in. and all the talking about other people just to make yourself look better. i hate it when that is done to me and i know better. and i also think its pointless to have to ALWAYS be in a relationship. i mean, maybe a couple through highschool is okay but hey, im a freshman and unlike most girls, i dont want a boyfriend. and i hate how guys dont understand that. like you try to tell them its poinless and then you just end up hurting them. im waiting for a relationship that will last with a good respectful God fearing guy. which is also a big problem since guys like that are not just to be found anywhere. i guess i never really realized how bad our society has gotten.

ughhhhhh. but anyway...this is my new view on life. because maybe if i gave in to the way everybody acts, i could get a little more attention and be well liked, but in the long run, once  boys have had their fun they're going to want the good girls. and they will be the ones who get the respect. it may not be easy right now, but it will give me a much better life.

well i just had to say this. because its been on my mind alot. lol.